Trying to be a better Person

I will be thirty years old in less than a month, I'm leaving my twenties behind. For the last year I have been lucky enough to work as a VFX artist, but the project I was working on ended. So I'm on the precipice of my thirties and I'm completely broke, about 75 pounds over weight, and addicted to fast food and Marijuana. I've been stealing pot and loose change from my roommate. If things don't change I will be homeless soon and I hate borrowing money from my best friends and my parents. I basically have just turned into a very shitty person and I want to get better. I started this blog right before I moved out to Los Angeles California. I'm not even sure why I started it, maybe to have someplace to put my weird thoughts online, but now it is going to be a journal to help keep me on track to becoming a better person. I have started running again, I've been running on and off all this year, but I want to actually complete this program that my friend Sean told me about. The program is called couch to 5k and it turns you from being a lazy asshole into a 5K runner. I'm on week one now. My goals are: complete the 9 weeks of couch to 5K, stop using pot, stop eating fast food, stop drinking soda, get a job, and in general just be less shitty.

So this will be my journal. I can record my successes and my inevitable failures. I have to change the time is now.

Even now I can feel this craving for McDonalds and soda nagging at the back of my head. I am tempted to go steal a few bucks from my roommate so that at least I can get McDonalds one last time before I start my journey to be better. It's always one last time. It's really sad that I love fast food so much and that I have no control over myself. Whatever keeps me happy and slightly sedated.

I'm not a completely hopeless though, I've been drawing a lot of comic strips and have done stand-up twice in the last month. I will find the strength, I have to. My parents provide a lot of support they are extremely supportive in my crazy goals and I need to make sure that I get on the right track to show them their love and support hasn't been wasted. I have great friends too, the only trouble with my friends is that they all live hundreds of miles away from me. I was really inspired by a stupid cartoon show finale the other day. The main character is running up a hill, he is overweight and out of breath, he collapses on the ground and someone stands over him. It's another runner.

"It Gets easier."

"What?"

"Everyday it gets a little easier, but you have to do it everyday that's the hard part."

Jobs Jobs Jobs

I've been trying to get a job, here's some stuff I made.

Animation Reel

Directors Reel

Graphic Design Portfolio

A Party on October 4th

I went to the party. I was debating it, but I finally decided to go. I really didn't know anyone there mainly just casual acquaintances. It was fun, I had a few beers and tried to connect with fellow mid-twenty like-minded people. Nearly everyone was a comedian, a party full of funny people. I had a good long conversation with a guy named Derek about film, he told me some tips on working in the industry. Derek said that you have to hustle to get your start. Hustle, meaning not to work quickly, but to work in a wide net that catches you as many opportunities as possible. I mingled with more of my peers and see a pretty girl across the room. Everyone kept asking if I was a comedian too, I was giving them all a long arduous answers about how I had done it before, but that I was extremely out of practice and was planning on starting up again soon. I was getting drunk, three beers and two shots of tequila. I pondered leaving, but was drawn to the back deck to smoke some weed. I smoked with two comedians, one was younger than me, but he had already been doing standup for ten years. I asked him who inspired him to get into comedy and he says that it wasn't a comedian, but just the general desire to make people laugh. I liked that. Then he went into a long tirade about how great paying for sex is. (especially blow-jobs) The other guy then explains to us both how the first time he ever payed for sex changed his life. I go back inside. Now I am strongly considering leaving the party. Suddenly the pretty girl I noticed before asks me if I'm a comic. I'm tired of the question and my stupid answer, so I just tell her that I do animation. She gets wide eyed and exclaims that she does too. I almost don't believe her, another animator at an all comics party? Plus she's pretty. So now the girl who I was too intimidated to talk to before has a major reason to talk to me. We talk about animation and life, she leans in close and asks if she can tell me a secret. She whispers that she is working on Hot Tub Time Machine 2 - behind the scenes. Her name is Olney, a very unique name. I ask her about her name and she asks me if I want the truth or for her to lie to me. I ask her to lie to me, I'm very proud of myself for saying that. Olney puts her number into my phone and says I should give her a call sometime, she might be able to help me get a job. We are interrupted by the host who tells Olney that she looks warm. Olney holds out her hand and I hold back and say that she is a bit warm. We part ways, then I decide its finally time for me to leave. I'm always leaving too early from parties, I've got a nervousness. I say bye to everyone and to Olney last, I tell her I will call her soon. We awkwardly try to shake hands, but it turns out sweet and kind. I walk to my car feeling a rush that I have missed for a long time. I think about change and how I need to keep striving to do better and I curse myself for leaving too early. I will call her tomorrow.

Top Five Comics That Would Make Awesome Movies

Many of my favorite comics have been made into films: The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, The Rocketeer, Mystery Men... A couple have actually been adapted successfully Sin City, Scott Pilgrim... But these are the comics that I would most like to see successfully made into films. (or that I would most like to successfully make into films)

5-Scud the Disposable Assassin
Tough to sell. To create Scud, Jeff, and Drywall into believable characters would be hard. Almost Impossible with Drywall, but I would like to see someone try. (or myself)

4-Madman
Why hasn't this movie been made yet? It would be sooo much fun!

3-The Tick
We got the live action series, but I would like to see a bigger budget on an hour and a half movie.

2-Mage
Come on Kevin Smith, make this into another one of your crappy films. It has characters sitting around and talking alongside brilliant fight scenes.

1-Creature Tech or Earthboy Jacobus
What a cop out! Two films for number one!?! They're both by Doug TenNapel and they would both make terrific films.

Read all of these, if you haven't you are missing out!

Cool Stuff

Kappy the Klown

All right, lets see... this is a blog. On this blog I will put my art. Come and enjoy.